In Memory… *Updated*
Tonight a little after midnight would have been my first child’s 11th birthday. She was a full term stillborn. You would think the mourning would get easier over the years but it doesn’t.
This year Aaron and I are doing a very good job in communicated our feelings about the baby. We started a little ceremony tonight that I hope we will continue each year to remember our daughter on this night. We read several verses of Psalms and lit a candle as well. We spent some time just sharing our feelings and thoughts about her. It was very healing for both of us.
Happy 11th birthday my dear daughter Nechama. I know that you are in a very happy place and can’t wait to meet you again after 120…
Aaron wrote a beautiful post on his new website. Thanks for sharing your feelings honey.
Snow and mid-winter vacation
So we’ve gotten yet another snowstorm in NYC. Because really we haven’t seen enough of the white stuff this year.
Rivky had a few days off for mid-winter vacation. Rivky and I both went to a new dentist – always fun but good to take care of while she had off. She had her first cavity and filling and did very well. The dentist specials in pediatrics and was very calm and patient with her. (Thanks Stephanie for the referral.) I’m glad we switched dentists. She really didn’t like the old one. She would probably have been screaming had she had to have a cavity filled with him.
Today she spent the day with her best friend and had fun. Mommy also got a much needed break.
The snow has stopped so hopefully there will be school tomorrow.
Show and Tell – sisterly love
I’ve been going through a hard time recently emotionally. This 6.5 year journey of trying to conceive #2 has taken a toll on both my emotional health and on my marriage. I fortunately found a terrific therapist who specializes in infertility. I high recommend to anyone struggling and feels that they can benefit from therapy to find someone who specializes in this field. Any old therapist will not fully get what you are going through. In my most recent session I found out that my therapist herself went through infertility and had multiple pregnancy losses. She also has one 11 year old daughter. Imagine that. If she doesn’t get me who does?
I’ve been improving emotionally slowly but surely. I still have alot of exploring to do as to where we hold on trying for another child. How far are we willing to go financially, emotionally, etc. For right now I’m happy that I’m getting stronger.
My sisters have been wonderful to me through all this. As hard as it is to watch their families grow year by year they’ve really came through for me recently with love and support. Here are a few of the tanglible gifts they’ve given me to help cheer me up.
These flowers where delivered on Friday – so stunning.
This card really touched my heart. My sisters have shared with me how I was like a mother to them growing up. I’m second to oldest and have always been motherly even as a little girl.
These are some soothing lotion, a mist spray and a candle inside a lamp shade – very relaxing when lit. I know my sisters don’t read this blog but just wanted to say I love you guys and thanks for being here for me.
Show and tell 11/30/08 – How trends change
Remember back when we where in primary school what was in vogue then? I remember jump rope, collecting stationary and stickers. Today things are different. At least in Rivky’s school they are. The collection is paper napkins (?) – don’t know who came up with that one. The cool thing to make is rubber band balls. This kept Rivky very busy last weekend. Here is the result of her efforts. It bounces quite well I might add.
PTA Meeting
We had Rivky’s parents/teachers conference tonight at her school. It went pretty well. Both her teachers said she was a very fine, sensitive and caring girl. Her morning teacher also added that she was a good friend and has a presence to her. There’s a few areas in which she needs to study more but overall I think they are happy with her. Always nice to hear that we are doing something right to raise her well.
Happy Birthday Dear Hubby
It’s Aaron’s birthday today. Yes, I know 2 birthdays in one week! We are 2 Scorpios managing to live in harmony together (more or less 
). For those who haven’t wished Aaron happy birthday on facebook already you can do so here.
We haven’t gone out yet to celebrate either of our birthdays although we may go out next week to see Madagascar 2. It looks pretty funny.
Malky’s Birthday
Malky’s Birthday was yesterday. For those who didn’t wish her happy birthday on facebook or twitter, you can do that here by leaving a comment. Cake is accecpted as well 
Fatherly Pride
This evening, I was helping Rivky study for her first ever social studies test. In spite of her not really being keen with the whole studying thing (and who is at that age?), she only had problems with two questions and we took care of them. I think that she’s set for tomorrow.
Show and Tell 11/01/08
I thought I’d show off some more needlework that I’ve done in the past. I did this cross stitch after Rivky was born. It was the hardest needlework I’ve ever done. It started out as a blank white canvas with instructions of where to stitch each stitch. Lots of counting and redoing stitches were involved. I don’t even know how I managed to do this while dealing with the early sleep deprivation days.
I must say the end results are pretty cute. I was nice to be able to customize it as well with Rivky’s birth stats. Don’t know if I’d ever attempt to do such hard needle work again though.
Post Op Doctor’s visit
Who is the “aaron” person that decided to post all of a sudden?
Seriously though, it’s high time that I got back into the swing of things with posting to the blog. I’d like to thank my lovely wife Malky for filling in for me.
I went to the doctor today for my post op follow up (try saying that 10 times fast) and everything looks good. He told me to continue with the Clomid for the next month then a month after that I need to have a blood test taken to see how things stand. He seemed pretty confident that everything will be good.
On another note, I only gained 3 pounds over the holidays.
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